i jokingly put on my facebook the other day that i felt like wonder woman, very pleased with all the tasks that i accomplished. but i ended asking if wonder woman ever felt as exhausted as i felt.
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mkay. things have been difficult for all of us since jay has been under the weather. first it was his neck, and now he is plagued by daily migraines that begin as soon as he wakes up. and there is no reprieve. and no matter the interventions that have been tried, both by myself and by his family doctor, nothing has resulted in any resolution. there have been brief moments of improvement, but nothing to relieve it completely.
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he sees a neurologist in two days, so we'll see how it goes.
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it's been difficult for me to pick up the extra work. i can't lie about that. it's been difficult to be a full-time working physician, and come home and be a full-time mother. but moreso, it's been difficult for jay to feel like he hasn't been contributing as much as he would like. so, let's just say that things have been stressful around the palmer household. however, we've remained strong and communicated well, and we've been able to tackle this together....with him working on feeling better, and me trying to give my all to make all things easier for him.
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i was previously feeling a little bitter about things. however, at least over the last week, i've looked at it more as a challenge. how many things can i do in one day? oh yeah? well, i bet i can do more tomorrow! and it's become that much more gratifying. in the last 72 hours, i've worked a full work day, delivered a baby, rounded at the hospital twice, been on call for all 26 physicians, worked at our after-hours clinic seeing 21 patients in three hours, cleaned the house, shampooed the carpets, done laundry, and completed 40 hours-worth of continuing medical education. and i went to the grocery (that place that i loathe so) and made dinner. plus i've been fortunate enough to catch two naps, sleep well through the night, snuggle with my dade-monster, and watch the IU/kentucky game.
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i feel like wonder woman. but instead of feeling exhausted like i did the other day, i feel renewed. rejuvenated. accomplished. and ready to face another challenge. and i feel extremely fortunate that i have such blessings in my husband, family, and friends, and that i've been given the opportunity to have these many irons in the fire. i know that God would not present me with all these challenges (which, i realize, are just every day tasks) if He didn't believe i could pull through. it's a chance to show my worth...to my husband, my children, my family, and God.
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i wonder what extra i can do tomorrow....maybe leap tall buildings in a single bound?
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